Hello my loves,
Recently I've been trying to work out just where I'm going and who I am again. I've found myself in a much happier frame of mind. Thats not to say that sometimes I get my low days, we all do and this isn't something I want to brush under the carpet. I always read these little posts on Facebook like "She glows differently" and for once I agree with that. I think theres just a few things that maybe my head has got round recently and its given me a fresh perspective.
Oh how my heart loves a little bit of baking. I've been throwing myself into my baking and even made a nice little instagram to go with it. Im not really sure where I fell in love with baking, maybe its because I'm a little chunky monkey (I am curvy and I like it thank you very much), maybe its because I like to make people happy with food. We will never know. All I do know is that having that little outlet has given me a little pep in my step to get through the mentally draining shifts at work.
Apologising |
I am a handful. I spoke last time about how I can be like a hurricane when I have a meltdown. Admitting who I've become has sort of put my mind in a happier place. I've said my sorry's, Ive made amends and Im trying so hard to be a better person. I think I loose track of what I say and let me brain take over. I put too much on others and I needed to see that that was wrong. It wasn't wrong to feel how I felt, it was wrong to expect everyone else to pick up my pieces. I've spoke to a few people and just explained it a little and they have been a big support. I just feel better that Im trying to be better. I wont ever be perfect, I can just try to be the best version of myself. All the good bits magnified.
Music |
I've found some songs from when I was growing up and its just made me feel so much happier. Isn't it amazing how one song can trigger such happiness in your brain. Now because these songs have made me so happy lately, Ill even link them for you. Maybe you're younger and would have never heard these songs. If so, please enjoy. Now I have a good range of music I like so I hope theres at least one you like.
Starship - Nothings gonna stop us
The Beatles - When I'm sixty four
Frozen - For the first time in forever
I think in life I've got to find the balance between my highs and lows, something I've struggled with a lot. Recently though I just feel a little bit like maybe I'm making some sort of progress. Maybe its having this new blog to keep me occupied. Maybe its because I was put in my place, where I needed to be to see who I was. Maybe its a mix of a lot of things.
Stay safe,
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